The Flipside of Leadership, or its curse! Introduction

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Blessings and curses are opposites in both intent and result. Blessings tend to come with good will and curses tend not to. Blessings bring something good, fruitful, lasting, joyful from a heart of love towards the intended. Curses don’t tend to be any of those things. Which is why the idea of a curse does not quite fit with this little study I am embarking on.The Curse of Leadership has been the title since its conception in my thinking some 2 years ago. A title that reflects my personal experience over the then 7 years in full time church leadership of one sort or another. But as soon as I come to begin writing it ‘curse’ sounds altogether to hard. And yet there is something there that I can’t quite let go of because at the worse of times it just feels like it – a curse.The ‘flipside’ sounds altogether more friendly and palatable, almost funky and trendy as if it might represent some new insight into leadership and management – although I am fairly sure that is unlikely to be the case. So a double title it will be for a while.This writing exercise is meant to be an exploration of personal experience in the hope of dredging the depths of it for all the wisdom it contains. Personal experience of leadership in a few guises but mainly in the context of local church and ministry. Distilling something about the gift of leadership over and against leadership positions and skills – a distinction that will be explored – and what in particular that gift brings to the life of its holder. Perhaps contesting the widely held assumption that many of the perceived strengths of such a gift could in fact be its weaknesses.For me this is also an exercise in regular writing. So we’ll see how that goes! Given the wise contrast between training and trying, lets go for an episode once a week – or there abouts!Some of the title splash came from a piece by Vicky Newman highlighted in the Indepndent this week as taking part in the Stuart project.

2006
12/01
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Mission and Ministry
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My last essay for part one MTh: An emerging theology of mission

During the summers of 2002-05 I was leading a team that established a summer event youth cafe in Hazlemere, High Wycombe: called Fresh Cafe.Some of the agenda for that first cafe was to have no evangelistic content, despite there being about 40% non-church-attending attendance. God had some slightly different agenda and out of going with what God was doing a theology of mission emerged that was quite different than what we had experienced and yet strangely familiar to our theological convictions.But before we get on to what emerged I need to explore where we were at the beginning, which brings me to my first question.Jason Clark bloged [back in September] about Salvation and Spiritual Formation in which he distinguished two approaches: Creation-Fall-Redmeption and Creation-Incarnation-Recreation.The first goes like thisCreation: God made the world; it was ‘perfect’ (perfection being a greek idea of static purity)Fall: humans fell, from this state of perfection.Redemption: and need salvation or redemption to a higher order of being (back to perfection).So my question is, if you know or use this framework, what are your influences? Where are your sources and how do you use them?I would be very grateful if you have a moment to comment.

2006
11/19
CATEGORY
MTh Applied Theology
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The Likeable Vicar

Me

and occasionally his demeanour would suggest inapproachability. This is not actually the case.

This is a line of a reference written about me as part of application for training as a priest in the Church of England. I can’t deny it!

With a more positive spin, my end of first year in training report has this to say

Graham presents as a thoughtful, sometimes very serious, hard-working, reflective person, with a great deal of power and presence. But he is also very open, witty, self-disclosing and human

The long and the short of it is that it takes a while for people to get below the hardened exterior to find the real me, who I like to think reflects the grace, love and hope of God. Nevertheless, I have my ‘axe-murderer’ appearance [as my wife calls it], which presents ‘don’t come near’

Working in a parish, as the Vicar who essentially has a relationship with everyone ex officio, one needs to become a ‘likeable’ person. For the person on the street, in the council meeting, at the door of the church, in public and private. And likeable starts with ‘approachable’.

In previous ministry positions, despite being a senior lay minister with cross-church responsibilities and ‘apperances’, I essentially worked with my team and those who were directly in my pastoral responsibility. As a Vicar one becomes the public face of church and to some extent of God, perhaps I need a new look!

Being approachable and likeable does not of course stop me being a thoughtful, serious, hard-working and reflective person. It just means I need a smile to cover it up.

2006
09/27
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Formation
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Money, Money, Money

Savng the pennies

Money is a huge issue in ministry: I mean personal money. We have recently become debt free for the first time since entering full-time ministry 9 years ago. This has been both because of some generous people and a lot of hard work earning extra money and scraping by with bear minimum [techniques and examples maybe the subject of another blog].

Becoming a vicar is not done for the money, in fact, you are not paid to do the job. Instead you receive a stipend, which is money to live on so you don’t have to work. The bottom line being that if a vicar was paid for what they did, remunerated, paid for the service provided, then there are few churches in the UK who could afford it.

This provides an odd situation where you could become the incumbent in an area you would never be able to afford to live in. There are certainly many places where the poor of the town live in the Rectory. So there you are ministering to people earning far in excess of you, living in superb houses you usually see in Home and Garden type magazines, whilst you as the vicar are scraping by trying to provide for your kids and afford a weeks holiday each year.

Having painted that picture, I am very grateful for the surprises of being in this ‘living-by-faith’ situation. We have being blessed by money through the door, holiday locations given, help in crises and the regular support by family and friends.

Such a life though provides two points of juxtaposition. Firstly, on a practical level of lifestyle between ourselves and those with more disposable income. Secondly, on managing the internal coveting and calling. Desiring a more wealthy lifestyle and desiring to follow my calling, realising that one probably excludes the other for us.

2006
09/20
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Formation
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Goals of Ministry

To-do-list

Most of my experience in church ministry has involved a reasonable amount of projects. At the Baptist church, the youth ministry was a huge programme, not that relational engagement was low on the agenda but with 250 under 18′s at it’s peek you need programmes. Programmes always bring goals and deadlines for preparation and activity.

There was a much higher emphasis on relational ministry at the Anglican church and a relatively low programme base alongside that. However, there always seemed also to be a project, or several, that we as the leadership team were working on.

Projects produce goals and goals are measurable. I had a conversation with David about measuring ministry and how, in a rural commuter town with many experienced active and retired managers, did he feel the church measured his ministry. We were at the time sitting out in the sun at a very nice place with coffee and cakes.

David’s thoughts were very interesting. He highlighted some areas where the congregation expected to see performance, administration, communication, conduct of services, the condition of the church building and pastoral care.

Most of these points are reasonably measurable and in most cases possible to improve on. The congregation expects a smooth running ship and not to be the victim of unprofessionalism. Interesting that these are seen as professional aspects of being a vicar in today’s world.

It is not unsurprising to see pastoral care on the list. If the people don’t feel cared for, then what is the vicar up to! Obviously this is particularly measurable at the points of crisis. If one family felt unsupported in a time of crisis then the news would soon spread and the vicar would likely be approached.

What is surprising about the list is what is missing. Discipleship, mission [local and global] and growth in numbers. Some of the things that would be towards the top of my list. Is this a difference in approach to ministry, different contexts, differing theology or perhaps emphases on calling?

For my part, I would feel I was side-stepping my calling and short-changing the parish if we were not growing, in love for God, in love for our neighbour and numerically in people entering the kingdom.

2006
09/20
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Formation
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The Place of the Building

Inside Traditional Church
we shape our buildings then our buildings shape us

I spent some time with the verger this morning. The vergers job, it seems to me, is to prepare the building for worship and generally oversee the daily operations of the building for those who use it, residents and visitors alike. Alongside that there are some ceremonial aspects which involve a black cloak and a staff. But why a Verger?

What has struck me in the first few days here is the place of place. In youth ministry, space is important, a space to meet and be, but that space is mobile. It’s fabulous if you have a room, or even a building for your youth ministry, but most churches don’t and actually are not the poorer for it. Finding homes, rooms and halls [and even different churches] for space to meet and be is part of being in the mobile, ever moving culture. But as a vicar, place becomes important. Having a large church building [even if in comparison to others it is small] defines the starting place for you ministry. It is base camp as Geraldine calls it in the first episode of Vicar of Dibley.

Base camp has a history, a physical history of the building and the communities that have called it ‘their church’ over its time. This history not only defines the physical space with the various stones, pews, monuments and woodwork. It also defines the spiritual space of various practices and ‘ways of doing things’. Now whilst I have experienced this before in all the churches I have worked in, I had a kind of free pass because of the type of ministry I was involved in which was always seen as radical and new. So I have never taken much thought over how the place defines your ministry. David relates the process of trying to move communion down from the high altar to a table in front of the chancel steps. This was not welcomed but a 6 month trial was agreed. After 6 months 65 survey responses were received and only one indicated that they were happy with the new arrangement. David now does communion at the high altar even though this is against much of his desire, theology and conviction. His ministry has been shaped, or perhaps shoe-horned into, the place.

Because of this strong tie between the vicar and the building, even ministry in the community ultimately refers back to the building. Introducing yourself as the vicar is met with reference to the church, silently or vocally. Being in the schools, council meetings, shops and community events does not and cannot separate you from the building. Of course some church leaders have released themselves from such physical constrains and now meet in a café or school building, but they have in fact just swapped one set of physical constrains for another.

Two thoughts follow. The first is that such a constraint forces you to engage with where that community is coming from. A thorough appreciation of the journey thus far is the foundation of any journey yet to come. It needs to be thorough because just observing the superficial appearances does not reveal the relational investment that members of the community might have with the history and thus the physical aspects of the building. In needs to be an appreciation because just dismissing various episodes in their story as old or worse still as misguided in theology or practice simply means that they won’t follow any leadership you might have to offer.

These thoughts at least, lead me to the attitude change that needs to take place. That is, to learn to love your building: live in it, hear it breath, listen for the heart beat and watch it welcome its visitors old and new. Even if you eventually need to let your building lie in peace and die, you must be in a place to be bereaved before such a suggestion enters your thoughts, let alone the PCC agenda.

In this context, being the Priest-in-Charge sounds rather strange and even arrogant. For surely, until you’re in a place where you love your building you are but a visiting-priest. Visiting and joining in the faith journey of a community.

2006
09/13
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Formation
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Minding the Gap

Minding the Gap

After being involved in leading the service in some way or another I have always had the habit of standing by the door as people leave. This is obviously to allow people to interact with the content of the service and of course to put some human contact into the sometimes detached sense of being ‘up-there’ at the front.

In previous churches this exercise has always had some pretty stiff architectural opposition since the location of the coffee has conflicted with the location of the door. In the end this usually meant that I stood at the door for a few minutes until I felt completely left out of it and then joined the queue for drinks and biscuits.

Having stood at the door at St James’ now a few times there is a clear difference. At the door you have contact, physical and vocal, with everyone at the service. It would have to be their intent if someone wanted to leave without speaking with the vicar. At coffee, I would normally end up speaking to those who wanted to speak to me, either with and agenda or more often simply because they were friends.

Now I understand there will be all kinds of problems with the door model. Primarily, it would only work if there were no coffee. At St James’ the coffee is at the beginning of the service time for those who would like it. Additionally, it could take a long time for everyone to leave if the congregation were of any size, although it did not seem that cumbersome even at Christmas. It would also be easy to count this brief contact as a substitute for the genuine and sustained contact of meeting and visiting the parishioners.

However, the way the door works here at St James’ is that it becomes the link between the ministry in the building, on Sundays, marriages and funerals, and the ministry of being around the town. Speaking to the same person at the church door and behind the post office counter or just simply as they are walking their dog physically breaks a very real mental gap between church services and life. This is perhaps even more so for the non-regular-church-goer who perhaps was only in church for a funeral and Easter but who now knows who the vicar is when they meet in everyday life.

This door ministry has a particular place in small and market town parishes where the vicar does their life in the context of the few thousand people in the parish. There is of course less opportunity as the specific place becomes larger and where community is less tied to place and more to network. But perhaps the challenge arises wherever the church happens to be, how can you help people cross the gap between service and life by your physical presence as the vicar?

2006
09/12
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Formation
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Greenbelt: a perculiar wind

Our empty tent site at Greenbelt

It has been a while since Greenbelt and I have been meaning to record a few thoughts that came during that weekend.

My first thought was after Shane Claiborne who spoke about Big Beasts and Little Prophets.  What struck both Kate and I about his mix of anecdotes and challenges was that part of been Christian is to be ‘peculiar’ in the eyes of those around you.  Sharing extra-ordinary hospitality and demonstrating an unmatchable degree of grace in everyday ordinary situations where the people we meet are at their point of need.  This calls for a very hands-on approach to life let alone ministry.

Our second thought came after listening to Jim Wallis in conversation with Stephen Timms MP.  Jim talked about meeting congress[people] and the three types you meet. First those who follow through their convictions, then those who follow their convictions when they are in line with public opinion and then those who form their convictions by following public opinion.  Jim said that all three are walking around with their finger in the air trying to discern what’s on the current wind and where it might be going.  Change the wind and all three types will be affected.  I have to confess that this is something that excites me. Not that the hands-on life of hospitality and grace doesn’t.  Far from it and we have some stories of extraordinary things happening through such hands-on life. But changing the wind…

2006
09/06
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The Empty Diary

Once I had made a move towards ordained ministry I began to take more notice of what the clergy on the staff were doing: funerals, weddings and services. I remember a conversation with the curate about funerals and what is involved once the church received a call from the funeral directors or family. What struck me is not how many times you might need to visit the family, preparing the service including perhaps a eulogy, communicating with the director and perhaps the crematorium and what bereavement follow-up might be appropriate. Rather it was that such a phone call might happen at anytime of the week, day or night.

Getting such a phone call on Monday morning when the diary already has preparing for the APCM on Tuesday evening, being involved in civic ceremonies on Wednesday, a day in the school interviewing for a new head on Thursday, preparing for Sunday services on Friday morning and visiting your parents-in-law in the afternoon, can only mean trouble at home when the children begin to wonder where their Dad is. Getting it on Friday afternoon when you are just settling down to prepare the sermon can only mean something gives that cannot be given!!
The easy conclusion is to start the week with your diary half empty! Is this possible?

What is also apparent is that once you get from behind the computer screen and live as a part of the community in which you are the priest, time becomes a very disposable commodity. Going to the Post Office to buy some stamps can turn into 3 conversations and an hour, for a 10 min walk and job.

Being a person who usually starts their week with their diary full and avoids situations that are likely to take more time than I can spare I have a load of movement to make. But…

But what?
Is the answer to diary in community time, in which you either do the things that come up like funeral visits and visiting the sick? When nothing comes up then there is time to bum around the parish and meet some people doing ordinary things like shopping.

Is the answer to never take on the things that eat up you time, like various committees and groups that inevitably result in more jobs on the to-do-list?

Perhaps then I need a strategy that keeps the diary under control and gets me out into the community. Or a passion that means I can keep my strengths and weakness in the right balance? The strength of getting things done and the weakness of being too goal driven?

This diary discipline, which reflects your calling and ministry, your values and passions, is a major area to submit to the sabbatical principle, the chance to break old habits that are getting you no-where and wearing you down. I have slipped into a place where my diary is in control of me and I must do what ever it takes to make sure that when [and if] I start ministry again, I gain a firm grip on my diary. Keeping a balance of my strengths and weaknesses but allowing my passions to express themselves in a way that is life-giving to myself, my family and the parish.

2006
08/10
CATEGORY
Formation
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Entering the Emotional Cauldron

The Funeral and Thanksgiving service of Diana Welch happened this morning. I attended and observed. During this service a very clear distinction between the ministry I have been part of and the ministry of a vicar struck me again.

The vicar gets thrown into the emotional cauldron of the parish in a way that I have not experienced and in part have been protected from by the vicar [and my computer screen if I am being too honest]. Whether the vicar has any emotional ties or investment in a particular family, person or situation is completely besides the point. Since they are invited, largely, into the very centre of the stirring cauldron by the people at its centre and those stirring it.

This morning was enormously sad: giving thanks for the life of Diana, who leaves a husband, three children now married and six grandchildren, countless friends and fans. To meet with the family, lead the funeral and a thanksgiving service without joining in and feeling the emotional temperature would be dishonour the family and, I think, God. I felt it and I was a complete outsider sitting at the back being distracted by all sorts of irrelevant thoughts and occurrences.

How does this fit into the current cornerstone of my priestly understanding of “reflecting the Priesthood of Christ and serving the priesthood of all believers? This Michael Ramsey quote goes on to say “to be one of the means of grace whereby God enables the church to be church.” So what do we mean by church? Is it a place that celebrates and laments, sings and weeps, caught up in the complex weave of human emotions, which in themselves must be caught up in the glorious image of God in which we are made. If it is, then being thrown, or politely invited, into the emotional cauldron of the parish life is exactly where the vicar should be.

2006
08/07
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Formation
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